received loads of xmas messages and have been sending out loads too. An extra bonus was the one from Miss Tan Jen Fee!! HAHAHAS. SHE IS SO CUTE! LOL. My stomach died ystd so fell asleep at 8pm and woke up at 1050pm. watched S pop and tried to read through some organic chemistry notes after months of not thinking about chem at all. YAY. I have already set my targets and i will achieve it!! This month have been far more productive than those when i just started attachment. That time it was innocence that pulled us through, really. we finished work at 10am and then the prof had nth to give us to do. According to rules and regulations, we can only leave at 6pm so we stupidly sat there and waited till 6, i mean with lunch break in between of course. we were reali innocent, we tried to hide somewhere to do our homework, hoprfully the prof wun see. Come to think of it, we are reali stupid, just study blatantly in front og the prof since we have already finsihed our work! No wonder, we call it cheap controllable child labour.

smsed mr tong to ask him for his address so that i can send a xmas card to him. he spammed my inox with loads of messages and the first one i saw was like : This is going to be a moment in history.. come on, i do send out xmas cards unless for those years, where my family have a tradition of going overseas to celebrate christmas. My cards are always so special !

ahahahahahs.

just looked at my email. my china buddy, zijun sent me a christmas card!! YAY.

cousins and aunts just came to my house, but i had discipline so i stayed at home to finish my stacks of school homework while they went off to eat at crystal jade. AWW!

VALERIE YEO! i m so going to let u see the smses mr tong sent me. Its a norm that yvonne is always so nice to send out xmas cards lor. btw, enjoy ur shanghai trip.

; 8:14 PM

the wonderful memories that last forever.

; 12:48 AM

; 6:23 AM

Friends, be it really close frens or frens whom i see everyday, have told me they wanted to see me smile again, the cheerful smiles that brighten up our days. Smiles which really expose ur teeth, reveal your true feelings and not forced smiles. I guess thats lost, completely. Some people may think that i m emoing, believe in someone else's words, the someone else who doesnt even garner much respect from people. Its true, I told myself that there is not point wasting my tears and sweat into those tiny little issues and arguments and misunderstanings that arise off and then. I understand i play a role in whatever i m suppose to do and i m confident enough to say i will do everything to the best of my ability unless its something beyond my ability. Realli. I am not in anyway boosting or advertising myself, i can just sacrifice anythings to do whatev i have promised to help. Sometimes, frens told me to stay strong but i guess everydrop of tear i shed encompasses my emotions, my feelings, my thoughts and my reflections. I may appear to be a very weak person when i just complain about something which may seem so trivial and worthless to many, but to those little little small things, i need someone who can lend a listening ear and after telling them all that i need to say, I would feel better. But sometimes, these small small little issues just accumulate and history repeats itself, not once, not twice but infinite number of times. Thats when it really tests my strength, endurance, patience and determination. I guess my parents understand me the most but relying on them too often isnt a good option. After all, I have come to accept the fact that friends who are supposed to help you may just back up last minute and happily abide to the rule that "ignorance is bliss". I guess there are many ppl in this world who do that, believe in that but there is one person whom i can nv forget. The person who repeatedly test my patience and took advantage of the trust i have given you. I hope that all these smll little wrongdoings by the person would just strike him one day.

Thanks to all those frens who have heard me rant but its onli he one out of so many times, i will do something so rash, something which may not be beneficial to me, something which may demoralise everyone.

Hopefully, time and tide will end all these sufferings on me.

; 6:33 AM