Saturday, October 20, 2007
Dear diary,
I am so sad today. I din get my H3 maths.. really hope that i can appeal in.. PLS!!! thanks.. only 15 peeps in the school got in. real weird.. LOL. I want.. hahas.. Luckily, I always have encouraging frens and family by my side who constantly encourages me and tell me that a levels are nevertheless the most important one. True. but yvon always want to satisfy her dream.. her dream to do maths H3.. Prob its time that yvon looks at the bright side of life and starts studying well. The fact about whether i can get H3 or not is not important, most importantly, its to study happily and love my current subjects. Seriously, the yvon whom people noe in the past is no longer the yvon now.. today...right now. I still love BIO even though i do so badly, but i love the wonders of this subject and the teachers who constantly gives me the support and care. I wun let ur down!!! give me some time alright??
I guess i shldnt let the h3 thingee spoil my day.. YVON shall look at the bright side of life!!! JIAYOU!
; 4:08 AM
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
I got back BIO and GP papers today, it was totally demoralising so i shant talk abt it. Confidence was no longer the thing. I had confidence but i performed below expectations. I had faith but lack of luck conquered that. I had confidence and faith but studying last min conquered all that. True enough, I learnt a lesson-- not to study last min and stuff all info into my pea brain at the last second. ts counter studying. I am glad that I did pretty ok for the rest except BIO! what a waste.
I am really tried and shacked after all the shocks I had today. I shall sleep early today. Yvon really have to buck up or else.... yes, yvon will!!! fencing training tomorrow.. jiayou..
I think I am feeling real bad right now. Skipped nat team training for a week cos nat coach wasnt really able to train me though cos busy training for SEA games peeps. BUT, yvon is never a poner!! She is really enthu.
Thanks for the lovely talk over the phone, Baojia!! I love you. You are always that encouraging and supportive of me. as for you, i wish you all the best and do not put too high expectations on yourselves even though the teachers are pushing you so much... Do everything at your own pace. LOL. jiayou wor.
yvon is real tired and shall end here
; 6:59 AM
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Nat trials seem to be bothering me, not exactly bothering but i wanna participate but in the mean time not to lose face in front of coach, esp nat team coach. The whole nat team epee is playing mann, I a bit will not get thrashed... :) as what Im said, treat it with a different mentality!~ Yea! I am so seriously gg to laugh like mad la. OMG! nvm, the word again is 'try'
got back maths promos. one unmarked question. shld be able to get A. Hope so. Pray hard that nothing goes wrong. YUPS. tomorrow would be the best day!!! BIO and GP! Whoots. Pray for the very best too.
spent two nights at cousin's house cos house under renovation.
I have a tolerance level, anything beyond that and esp when u said it in such a serious tone, i really cant stand it. However, if frens just laugh it off or be direct at times when things are true, yvon can tolerate and even welcome that.
well, just feelng random again. I love this and I love fencing.
sickening guy, nice gal. yea. memories.
randomness again. I wanna have a pair of ballet shoes like those above. (*hint: yvon's bdae coming soon).. omgg. how i wish such nice ballet shoes could be a pair of shoes.. ahh.
GOSH!! I want to have a white grand piano when i become real pro next time. Today, I had piano lesson and it was terrible.. feel so bad.. OMG. shant talk about it. Yvon!!! Practise more!!
very tired.. shall end my post here:)
Yvon wishes herself good luck for release of bio and GP results.
; 1:53 AM
Sunday, October 14, 2007
A friend that i will never rmb, a fren whom i wish can stay with me forever. The fren who accompanies me when i m home sick. The friend who listen to my woes and sorrows. The freen who always cheer me up. The fren who makes my day a different one. I <3>
My group of frens who were always by my side. Thanks for the lovely time spent.
The cls which enriches my two years in dunman. Though its a class i wasnt really bonded to, the friendships are everlasting. Thanks for the nice moments.
Friends who are always beside you when you are home sick.
The moments of joy with a teacher so caring and nice. A fren who is always by your side.
I savour the pretty moments with my friends, friends who hear me crap and random.
I hope that I can be part of hc fencing for life .
I love my fencing school. the creation of an epeelover.
I want to be part of this wonderful school.
I love the feeling of dance.
The team which i want to be part of. really.
Somewhere over the rainbow, the blue skies, I wish to be part of that. I want a fulfilling life, a life i would never forget, a life enriched by friends and family and school.
I wish to be part of the large music studio, playing my melody, touching the lives of many.
I hope that i can revive all these memories, some which i may have forgotten, some which i really hope can stay fresh in my mind everyday. I love my friends around me. I aint an easy person to get along with. I random, crap, throw tantrums, laugh and shout for no reason. These are the stuff which i do to make myself happy ( dun ask why:) " I wish to be part of the large music studio, playing my own melody to touch the lives of many". Thats really true. My mum put me into a music class when i was 5 but at that time, laerning music was a burden to me because there wasnt someone beside me to motivate and push me on. I took up piano again at a really old age. Sometimes, whenever i see young pianists playing in large concert halls, I feel inferior but again, I told myself, I can make the difference and i can also play in the same concert hall. All these thoughts have been falshing past my mind these days, no reason why but all these little flashbacks help me revive the little and sweet memories which are about to drip off my mind. I am glad that my parents gave me the chance to make a difference in my life with music. I will do my best.
Ballet dancing was a thing i always wanted to do but never have the chance to. I love the grace, the elegance..... However, i was lucky enough to be able to do tap dancing, a dance which i almost lost faith in when i was learning and wanted to quit. Luckily, my dance teacher was always beside me, cheering me on, spurring me on. Thanks for all those little gifts and encouragment.
BSP trips!! I never have a really good impression about the BSP trips which I had, especially the last China trip. There were a lot of politics going in our small little clique. I appear quiet all these while not because i did not want to say anything but i was fearful to say something which may hurt our friendship. I really hope that we can go back to those moments, when we were so close together, being so involved in science projects, spending the night doing our research paper and doing crazy actions. I love the moments spent in the D and T room. Though we were always so fearful that the machines will burst or wadsoeva, i guess the process of making the ball shooter was definitely a memorable one. I wish that i can go back to all those little and sweet moments when we were together. Its the feeling of unease whenever i join the other group which you were in. I really hope you never misunderstood my little actions. In my heart, you are still a good fren, or even a fren whom i will always rmb, a friend who crap, cheer me up and make nice posters for me.
I want to revive all these wonderful moments and i hope my frens would be always beside me. I love hwa chong. I love my frens. I love hc fencing.
; 7:06 PM
OMG.. today is such a perfect day. 
morning. I had breakfast with valerie. yoyo. i think the lor mee looks quite nice. LOL. lets have more breakfasts together.
afternoon. had lunch with charmaine at swensens. Cool. The first time in my life i ate so much and feel like bursting. I had fish and chips and had this chocolate ice cream that was IMBA! omgg. lets go back again.
night. had dinner with miss au yong at mos. din eat much thou cos i was too full from lunch. I love the convo. Lets meet up often. Anyway, jiayou for your exams. midnight. went to cousin house for stay over cos house under renovation. I can sleep late!!
I am looking forward to tomorrow cos there is fencing training!! Yea. I want to train hard and aim for my very best. Yvon thereby declare that she loves fencing.
There are a lot of frens whom i wanna meet up. Baojia, valerie, charmaine, baona and my 4 gals gang and all my nice nice frens.... Peeps, lets meet up real soon. I guess i have really changed over time. I wake up everyday, hoping that i can train for fencing and become a nat team player. That kind of motivation is so great, really great. I am no longer the slack slack yvonne and most importantly i wanna aim for my very best to show others who the real yvon really is. I am determined.
I felt guilty today cos i din really help my parents in packing the house and stuff and keep going out to shop ( thou i din splurge) . Mum lectured me. I guess this time its my fault. I admitted. I guess though my family is small, we are very close knitted. Thanks for the candle light dinner last night and thanks for treating me to bottletree park for such an expensive and wonderful dinner, something i have yearned for a year ago. I like the ambience, the large greenary and of course the cool swings. Yvon in the past loves areas where there are a lot of shops and can shop till i drop. Yvon now loves large spaces, spaces which make me feel i have loads of freedom. I like the feeling of fencing on the piste. Its like the whole piste is laid out solely for you. Its your platform, the platform for you to shine. Love that experience. To people who always say that my fencing speed is slow or mentioned that " I really feel you can be as good as so and so.,," trust me and give me some time and observe the rise of a different yvonne. I will do it, statement really powerful. I will make the difference.
The difference in my life. The passion and love 
that drives. 
; 6:36 AM
Saturday, October 13, 2007
heyys, thats my new blog!!
As to why my blog is full of "epee.my love..." and stuff, its because i really love epee. LOL.
Gosh, come to think of it, the year is coming to an end which means my life in hwa chong is coming to an end in a year. Comparatively (sensitive issue thou), hwa chong is definitely more fun, exciting and classmates there are mostly sincere. In dunman, perfection was what i was going for. I could rmb times when i wanted perfect scores, perfect frens ( and yes, i did find one-- BAOJIA) and also a perfect life. In hwa chong, it was pretty much different. Comparatively to the rest, I was less capable in many ways but it was the drive within me that kept me going. I guess its the drive that comnes when you are made to feel inferior, unlike moments in dunman, whereby i have always been placed pretty much at the summit. The feeling is totally different. I learnt. From setting up a brand new CCA and training WITH the national team was in fact a great turning point for me. The comments ( which are totally insulting) that you have to bear makes me a different person from now.
Back then, i became extremely cautious when it comes to making frens cos frens then do not really show their true colours and most of the time they make use of you. In hc, its not that i aint cautious but that feeling of fearing a fren betraying you wasnt really much prevalent. I always wanted to have such a feeling and i glad i did. Close frens who would hear you random, cry, talk, chat and lame together are frens that would bring you for long. I am glad that my clique of four sisters band- shonda, baona, wanrong and eunice made my stay in hc a wonderful and perhaps one with everlasting memories.
Just in case i sound bias in any way( which seems very much true), my previous school has definitely provide me with opportunities to shine as an individual. I think its times i forget the moments of irrationality of the teachers. One whom i would nv forget is miss fang who commented about my hair being long when it was perfectly alright ( i have teachers to back this up). I m a pretty emotional person who is easily affected by feelings and comments of others and such a blow would be something i would never forget for sure, at least for the next ten years or so.
I am glad that i have a great fencing exco always behind me, spurring me on, encouraging me when my national team coach niao me throughout. Yvon is not gg to be like the "yeaterday yvon". I will be motivated mann!!! YAY.
went kboxing with edison and baona today!!1
; 4:16 AM
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
yoyo
; 7:42 AM
My group of frens who were always by my side. Thanks for the lovely time spent.
The cls which enriches my two years in dunman. Though its a class i wasnt really bonded to, the friendships are everlasting. Thanks for the nice moments.
Friends who are always beside you when you are home sick.
The moments of joy with a teacher so caring and nice. A fren who is always by your side.
I savour the pretty moments with my friends, friends who hear me crap and random.
I hope that I can be part of hc fencing for life .
I love my fencing school. the creation of an epeelover.
I love the feeling of dance.
that drives. 